This is My Dream and My Family Dreams

This Is Me, the man who always looking for happiness for myself and for my family, also for the people around me, including friends, neighborhoods, city and for my country. But for now, I'm looking for happiness to my family. Maybe without them my life is empty, nothing and no direction. So I want to make sure that all the one who connected with me feel happy.

All what I said that I want make everyone happy is not the easy thing to do, because what people need and what they want is very various and a lot, it's impossible you can gave what they want, act like they want to and believe me it's very hard. But me is the one who want to do that, but how? I will do what I can do best to make that happen, including if I have to sacrifice my own happiness for them.

Now I'm struggle and fight to find my dream, my family dream, which is has my own house, my own store and my own business. I know that's a big dream but that's not impossible to reach. I want to be a rich man so I can help anyone who needed my help. I want to be the one who can give my strength for the best of the life my family because all of those thing that I do is my duty and God give me the duty so I have to do what God told me.

anything else about what I want to do is will written in the next post. But I will do the best for the one I love so I can make insurance for them that I'm the best man they had, even many times they don't realize that, because I don't need a complement. This Is Me and always be me. Thank you.

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First Day in School

Continue from the last post, today I will write story when I was in Junior High School. and this is one of the best and worst experience I ever had in my life. After I graduated from Basic School or we use to call Sekolah Dasar, I continue to Junior High School or SMP. I made to enter one of the favorite school in Bogor which is SMP 5 and because from I was little I don't have much friend and almost alone every times, I was a little surprised when enter the first day in that school.

I saw many different kind of people and I said, if I can make friend to them that would be very nice. and day by day I live my life on that school but still I can make good friend to them, just friend who only said "Hi" and "Hello", not friend who can give us suggestion and sharing. But there is one guy who accept me as his friend and I really excited. I know him when I buy some lunch in cafeteria and he ask me where do I come from and I answer him. from that moment me and him become close friend, but I didn't realize that I already entering to the other side of him.

Yes, he is one of the "bad boys" in the school who always miss the school and I think too late for me to realize that because I already in. I go from home to school but I never go to school, I go to mall, any place that make me and all the friend can spend times to have fun, and those happen almost every 2 days in a week, when we don't like the teacher or the lesson we don't like.

Many times we get caught by our teacher and we get punishment but that don't make us learn, we are to wild and what we think is only joy and happiness because we want free, we don't want to follow any rules. ha ha ha, I was laugh when I write this, how can I be such a foolish like that.

When I think of it now, I feel sorry to my parents because they already do the best for me to pay my School Insurance, because we are not rich people we just ordinary people. But, it's too late isn't it? This Is Me and this is the true of me.

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This Is Me when I was a little child

When I born in Bogor, Jawa Barat, Indonesia, I have stomach diseases that I don't know what it is, so I have to spend a lot of time in the hospital, may be about 1 month, that's what my parents said to me. When I was a little kid, there is no one want to play with me because I'm too weak they said, so they don't want me to become their friend cause they afraid they can loose in the game when they took me in. So from a little kid I get use to be alone because I'm also not my favorite child for my parents.

So day by day I through the time without knowing what to do. If I'm go to school, I'll just go to school because I don't have any ambitions, I'll just doing it, and my parents said I'm clever kid. The problem is, I move to one other school too much, may be can reach 3 or 4 times in a year so I don't have many friends in my life.

A lot of my friend said that me as a boy like sissy or "banci" cause I'm too weak, and from that moment I'll try to change so I can make myself strong. One day someone making fun of me, may be he 2 or 3 years older than me, but my body more bigger than him, he said hey you can never play this football or soccer, because this is only for real man, he said not for sissy. Again and again make me mad and angry, so I punch him and he cry. hahahaha, I punch him and he cry.

But on the afternoon his brother come to me and angry because his little brother was hit by me, and once again I have to face more bigger boy than me, about 5 or 6 years older than me and I run and run to avoid them. And I never told to my parents what happen that day, may be my age about 8 years old.

While my parents busy to work to find something for they children to get life insurance for they children, me and my big brother and little brother only play after school, but always even my brother doesn't want to play with me, so I left alone. I remember when I was in Palembang chasing a kite, me and the other boys climbing the tree and we are caught by someone who own that tree, so he get angry to all of us, we run and run as fast as we can. I think I have some fun that day.

May be enough for today and This Is Me, the real me, the man who looking for better life to make sure that's my family have any life insurance for them. Thanks for visiting

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I Will Fought for My Daughter Life Insurance

Me, live in Indonesia, Bekasi precisely and I'm work in Internet Cafe. my age 35 years old and I already work in many place. mostly I work on Garment Factory, but because in my country garment production is not one of the favorite business, so there is so many garment factory is closed. May be because the cost of production is too high so a lot of garment factory is closed. So start from years 2003 I'm work on Internet Cafe. Thanks to my friend they accept me as they employee.

For the first time it was very hard and difficult but now there is no problem for it. I'm also try to make blog so I can have earn from blog and other online business such as forex or tutorial computer. Should be what I get from my payment is enough but the fact that's never enough because there is so much I have to pay such as rent house, water, electric, my daughter school and any payment that was my responsible.

not mention if there is any of my family members are sick that's will make me depress, because what I'm earning from my payment on Internet Cafe is not enough may be far from enough. So I start to try to make online business, I made blog and I'll try adsense too, Forex too, and any other online business. I want to make sure that my daughter school insurance will pay and I don't need to think about her school anymore because I already pay insurance.

But I still don't have any result from it, may be because I'm too stupid or too dumb to do all of those thing. Such as this month I have to pay my house rent and that's cost a lot of money for me because I have to pay almost 4 million rupiah or about $400 US Dollar, and my payment only 1.5 million rupiah or about $150 US Dollar every month. So at this moment what I can do is only hope and pray, pray and hoping that God will help me, that someone will help me through this situation. For myself I don't need life Insurance because I will do anything for my family, for my wife and my daughter, so I don't care with my life Insurance, I just want they happy and I can give every need what they want, of course as long as I can do that and I know my wife understand me very much.

So everyday I'm hoping that's will be a miracle comes to me and lift me up from this situation, can gave me better life and better job so I can make my family happy and can pay they life insurance. This Is Me and this is the real me.

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This Is Me the Poor Man who can make his family happy

This blog I made to tell the world who I'm and this is me and the real me. I want to tell the world what is my problem and hope God will help me through this hard life, for me. This month is really hard for me, I don't know what to do anymore. From years to years always been like this, and always the money is the main problems. When I have to rent other house again, I have to spend a lot of money, the money that I've been saving all this one whole year.

I wish I'm a rich man, may be I don't have to rent a house, I can buy a house for me and my family so I don't have to spend money to rent a house again, but what can I do? what I can do is rent a house, I don't have enough money to buy it or even to credit it. not mention what I have to give money to my wife to use for the needs everyday for one month, is always been not enough for us, but we try to make that enough. If my store or rental not too much visitor who buy stuff from me or service they computer, so may be that day I can't earn anything.

I'm very confuse with this situation and it's happen again and again. Not mean I don't learn from the other years but what happen is always like this, is that God doesn't love me? or is God want me to do something that I don't know? I don't know really I don't know what to do anymore. Every possibility to gain the money I already do (may be) because this is me, the one who want to do anything to fill what my family needs.

I don't know who is fault if this happen, may be I'm too stupid to become a rich man or at least to become someone who can make his family happy without nothing less. sometimes I have to keep the money very tight and carefully so I don't buy something not worth but some how that money can be used for something and I really don't understand that.

God help me, I don't know to whom I have to begging for help, what I know is only You who never give up on me and I believe You know me the whole me and please forgive me, I know I'm the one a lot of sin and please have mercy for me, I don't know what I have to do when I have to face this reality. and this is me, the poor man who can make his family happy and I'm really sorry for it.

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